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Dec. 10th, 2004 @ 03:39 am New Topic
Alas!
syonakeleste:
[OOC: Sorry for the wait, and I'd rather like to apologize for last week's conversation topic's being...not all that well-thought-out. Scheduling demanded that there be one, but it also demanded several hundred miles of travel. Um.

Also, an announcement: rushthatspeaks has, due to time concerns, agreed to bestow her moderatorship upon gaudior. Welcome, please, our new co-moderator, who is cheerfully kicking me to formulate useful things like, say, rules for combat ^_^]


[Mikage:]

Himura-san, Muraki-san, Tsuzuki-san, Kurosaki-san, please sit down. (::mutters:: Preferably away from one another.) We are all here for the same purpose: to discuss, and learn about, how we can overcome our suffering from angst.

::waits for named characters to sit down, then walks to the storage area and wheels forward a blackboard, setting it in place to the north of the circle::



The first step in this program is to admit that we have angst. Even so, it is the largest step we will take--together ::he looks at the entire circle, but lingers on those who had begun overtures of combat:: --and some may need to work toward making that first step. For that, we must start understanding what angst is and how it affects us.

Please think for a moment about what comes to mind when you think of angst, and then I would like to ask volunteers to step up and write some words they associate with angst on the board. Under "angst."
From:syonakeleste
Date:December 10th, 2004 08:52 pm (UTC)
(Never Forget)
[Just a note: the jpeg is there for fun only, the comments function for ...uh, functionality; I'm probably going to take the things people say and put them up there, but I'm so not expecting anyone to edit the image to put up their reasons for angst. I don't know if that was causing confustion or not, but it seemed like something that might after I'd had a bit of sleep.]
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From:gaudior
Date:December 11th, 2004 10:59 am (UTC)

Hisoka

(Never Forget)
*walks directly to board, picks up chalk, writes quickly and neatly*

"noun: a state of anxiety, apprehension, or insecurity."

*glares at Mikage. Sits down.*

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From:rackhamrose
Date:December 11th, 2004 11:15 am (UTC)

Tatsumi

(Never Forget)
...

Kurosaki-kun neglected to mention that it's originally a German word.
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From:syonakeleste
Date:December 11th, 2004 11:20 am (UTC)

Mikage

(Never Forget)
::closes eyes briefly, takes deep breath::

Thank you, Kurosaki-san, Tatsumi-san. Perhaps you would care to enumerate some potential causes of angst? Or anxiety, apprehension, or insecurity?
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From:rackhamrose
Date:December 11th, 2004 11:25 am (UTC)

Tatsumi

(Never Forget)
Potential causes of anxiety... well, a high-stress job, for one thing.
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From:syonakeleste
Date:December 11th, 2004 09:04 pm (UTC)

Mikage

(Never Forget)
Indeed. Especially if no one ever tells you anything. Well, then, let's add "work" to the list.
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From:gaudior
Date:December 12th, 2004 09:11 am (UTC)

Akito

(Never Forget)
At least you have a job.
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From:eredien
Date:December 12th, 2004 08:31 pm (UTC)
(Never Forget)
*jaw tightens*

*walks up to chalkboard, writes "relationships" in very slightly messy handwriting, and sits back down*
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From:gaudior
Date:December 15th, 2004 05:20 am (UTC)

Akito

(Never Forget)
*to Hatori*

You're better off, you know.
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From:eredien
Date:December 17th, 2004 07:47 pm (UTC)
(Never Forget)
"That wasn't what I meant--" *cuts himself off with a visible effort of will*

A series of tiny muscles twitch in series across his face as he presses his teeth together, top jaw to bottom tighter and tighter.
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From:gaudior
Date:December 12th, 2004 09:15 am (UTC)

Hisoka, greatly relieved.

(Never Forget)
Tatsumi-san!

You got stuck doing this, too?

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From:thedemonprist
Date:December 12th, 2004 01:27 am (UTC)

Muraki

(Never Forget)
*coolly eyes Mikage, but sits down...next to Tsuzuki, of course*
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From:signy1
Date:December 13th, 2004 11:31 am (UTC)

Tsuzuki

(Never Forget)
Ah, not to look uncooperative or anything, but there is a bit of difference between being angsty and just sort of, you know, accepting and dealing with certain unsavory details about oneself. Being a little less than thrilled with... with unchangeable facts that aren't ever going to go away is just normal. *nervous pause* Isn't it?
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From:lignota
Date:December 13th, 2004 03:19 pm (UTC)

Kenshin

(Never Forget)
Sometimes even what seems unchangeable can change, that it can. *smiles*
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From:signy1
Date:December 15th, 2004 06:14 am (UTC)

Tsuzuki

(Never Forget)
No. Some things can't. Or won't. Or mustn't. I don't know which anymore.
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From:lignota
Date:December 17th, 2004 04:22 am (UTC)

Kenshin

(Never Forget)
What is it that cannot change, Tsuzuki-san?
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From:signy1
Date:December 17th, 2004 08:12 am (UTC)

Tsuzuki

(Never Forget)
*points to eyes.* These won't change. I'll always be a demon. *Points to Muraki.* That won't change. He'll always be there, destroying anyone who gets too close to me. And, *Points to Tatsumi* King Enma is never going to let me go. And you all know it. I'll always be a killer. There isn't a damned thing about my life that's in my own power to change. And I can accept that. I don't have to be happy about it, but I can accept it.
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From:gaudior
Date:December 19th, 2004 08:04 pm (UTC)

Hisoka

(Never Forget)
You-- you're not a demon. I told you that.

And he won't destroy me. He tried. It didn't work.

Tsuzuki...
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From:signy1
Date:December 19th, 2004 08:43 pm (UTC)

Tsuzuki

(Never Forget)
It's all right, Hisoka. It's all right. *Smiles at him.*
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From:gaudior
Date:December 20th, 2004 10:03 am (UTC)

Hisoka

(Never Forget)
If it were all right, you wouldn't be feeling like that about it.






[Note: if I'm wrong, and Tsuzuki actually is feeling just spiffy now, let me know and I'll delete this comment.

I just doubt that, somehow...]

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From:thedemonprist
Date:December 20th, 2004 11:53 pm (UTC)

Muraki

(Never Forget)
*smirks* Now why would I want to destroy a perfectly good plaything? Especially one as adorable as you...
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From:gaudior
Date:December 21st, 2004 10:17 am (UTC)

Hisoka, disbelieving

(Never Forget)
You. Killed. Me.

And it's a good question. Why the fuck did you want to do that?
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From:thedemonprist
Date:December 21st, 2004 11:05 pm (UTC)

Muraki

(Never Forget)
*lights up a cigarette* Wrong, dearest. It was the curse that killed you, not me. Call it an...unexpected, albeit interesting, side effect.

*studies Hisoka with a neutral expression* I can give you the answer you won't like, or the answer you really won't like. What do you think, boy?
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From:gaudior
Date:December 22nd, 2004 05:20 am (UTC)

hisoka

(Never Forget)
...tell me the true one.
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From:thedemonprist
Date:December 23rd, 2004 02:50 am (UTC)

Muraki, sober for once

(Never Forget)
*smokes cigarette quietly* They're both true. It just depends on what you want to hear.
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From:gaudior
Date:December 23rd, 2004 07:13 am (UTC)

Hisoka

(Never Forget)
Then tell me both.

I want to know why. I want to know every reason why. I don't care if I don't like it. When have I ever liked anything you ever said to me?

Just tell me.

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From:thedemonprist
Date:December 24th, 2004 01:57 am (UTC)

Muraki

(Never Forget)
*taps cigarette thoughtfully on the ashtray, lost for a few moments in old memories. Eyes refocus on Hisoka, once again neutral*

Perhaps...someday...I might. If it pleases me to share such.
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From:signy1
Date:December 24th, 2004 08:11 pm (UTC)

Tsuzuki

(Never Forget)
*Looks at Muraki, then at Hisoka, then at Muraki again. Jaw sets in determination.*
If it pleases you? It would please me if you gave him a straight answer. Shall we... shall we strike a bargain? Full, honest answers to any questions we choose to ask in exchange for... well, that could be negotiable.
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From:thedemonprist
Date:December 24th, 2004 08:38 pm (UTC)

Muraki

(Never Forget)
*visible eye widens just a tiny fraction with keen interest* My...you do propose an...interesting...exchange, Tsuzuki-san...

*puts out cigarette and scoots very close to Tsu [OOC: Muraki's sitting right next to you, hehe] and leans in, stopping just shy of outright indecency, looking intently into Tsu's eyes* I do wonder what your limits...of negotiation might be...
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From:gaudior
Date:December 26th, 2004 07:50 am (UTC)

Hisoka, shoving his way between the two of them

(Never Forget)
Tsuzuki, you idiot!

*hissing in Tsuzuki's ear*

He's got enough power over us already, you're trying to give him more? What the hell are you thinking?

*to Muraki*

I don't care that much, you smug son of a bitch! You want to tell me, fine-- but if you just want to make it another of your sick games, then forget it. I'm not playing.

*to Tsuzui*

And neither are you. Not on my behalf. No.
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From:signy1
Date:December 26th, 2004 08:35 am (UTC)

Tsuzuki

(Never Forget)
If it's my choice, Hisoka... if we get something useful out of what he has every intention of doing anyway... what harm? *In an undertone that's really, really trying to sound casual* After all. It wouldn't be the first time. I'd survive.
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From:lignota
Date:December 26th, 2004 08:06 pm (UTC)

Kenshin

(Never Forget)
You are not thinking clearly, Tsuzuki-san. You were willing to protect your friend -- why are you not willing to protect yourself?
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From:signy1
Date:December 27th, 2004 07:45 am (UTC)

Tsuzuki, very quietly

(Never Forget)
Because Hisoka doesn't deserve to get hurt. That's why.
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From:lignota
Date:December 28th, 2004 03:41 pm (UTC)

Kenshin

(Never Forget)
Neither do you, Tsuzuki-san. *smiles*
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From:signy1
Date:December 29th, 2004 09:35 pm (UTC)

Tsuzuki

(Never Forget)
*Opens mouth to say something that, from the expression on his face, would have been impressively angsty. Stops himself before he can say anything and smiles instead. Big smile. Big, goofy, showers-of-stars-in-background smile.*
I guess you're right. Sorry!
*Smiles again.*
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From:thedemonprist
Date:December 27th, 2004 02:52 am (UTC)

Muraki, sitting back down

(Never Forget)
*coolly glares* I believe I was talking to Tsuzuki-san, *not* to you, boy. If you're going to be a rude little brat, then no, I'm not going to tell you anything. *waits for Tsu's response*
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From:signy1
Date:December 27th, 2004 07:47 am (UTC)

Tsuzuki

(Never Forget)
Then the deal's off.
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From:thedemonprist
Date:December 28th, 2004 01:47 am (UTC)

Muraki

(Never Forget)
*can't help but look slightly disappointed* Very well. Your loss.
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From:signy1
Date:December 28th, 2004 09:25 pm (UTC)

Tsuzuki

(Never Forget)
*shrugs* I'm sure that, sooner or later, we'll revisit this territory. We're both stuck here, after all.
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From:thedemonprist
Date:December 28th, 2004 09:27 pm (UTC)

Muraki

(Never Forget)
*smiles* True.
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From:thedemonprist
Date:December 20th, 2004 11:50 pm (UTC)

Muraki

(Never Forget)
*smiles at Tsuzuki* Beloved, it's not that I *destroy* people who get too close to you....it's just that they can't love you like I can.
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From:halfspell
Date:December 19th, 2004 03:14 pm (UTC)

Yuki

(Never Forget)
This is still stupid. *eyes the arguing groups pointedly, then gets up and underlines relationships* I'm not here to play misery poker. Let me know when the betting is finished. *retakes his seat and pulls a package of cigarettes from a jacket pocket*
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From:gaudior
Date:December 20th, 2004 09:58 am (UTC)

Akito

(Never Forget)
Then why did you bother saying anything?
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From:powercorrupts
Date:December 29th, 2004 10:44 pm (UTC)

Sephiroth

(Never Forget)
*Just sits there, staring across the room at Cloud with a little smirk.*

(OOC: Seph's of the opinion that Cloud's got the real angst problem here. Or, at least, he's of the opinion that counseling will make Cloud stop giving him those what-about-my-pain speeches, with any luck; he tells me that he's getting awful tired of those.)
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From:untouchedheart
Date:December 29th, 2004 11:47 pm (UTC)

Re: Sephiroth

(Never Forget)
(OOC: Actually, that's not how I play Cloud at all.)
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From:lignota
Date:December 31st, 2004 02:37 pm (UTC)

Kenshin, to Tsuzuki

(Never Forget)
Tsuzuki-san . . . This one would like to understand. You spoke of killing, but this one senses no desire to kill. What is this job you hold, and what is it that forces you to stay?
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From:signy1
Date:December 31st, 2004 10:23 pm (UTC)

Tsuzuki, to Kenshin

(Never Forget)
My job. Well. Meifu-- Purgatory-- is sort of halfway between heaven, hell, and earth. We're the center. And we're the mechanism that keeps them all going. You see, death is... it's a big job. There are departments. There are people whose job it is to figure out who gets reincarnated, and where they go. There are people who figure out who gets born and who dies, and where and when and how. And there's my department. The summons department. When people don't die at the right time, we go down to earth. If someone died too soon, we find out why. We find out who killed them. *Shoots Muraki a truly dirty look.* And if someone didn't die when they were supposed to, for whatever reason... I try to find out why. And I kill them. That's my job.
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From:thedemonprist
Date:January 14th, 2005 01:52 pm (UTC)

Muraki

(Never Forget)
*somehow manages to look innocent while still smirking*
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From:syonakeleste
Date:January 3rd, 2005 07:50 pm (UTC)

Mikage

(Never Forget)
::intently listening to conversation between Tsuzuki and Kenshin::
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